I understand that things can't always go the way you want them to go, but I have been there way too many times, I have had faith, belief, hope, everything and been paid back with nothing.
In life, I want trust, loyalty, honesty, faithfulness, all those things that make a human being secure instad of paranoid and anxious. All those things that make a human feel comfort, feel like they are cared for, wanted, needed, desired, but most of all, loved.
Love can have many definitions to many people. But to me, if I am in a relationship, I am loyal and faithful to that one person, I lie about nothing, I hide nothing, I tell them everything about my day and everything that worries me without them even having to insist on asking me 100 plus times. I do eveything to make that person happy, to avoid them feeling nagative things all the time... And maybe you can say I ask for too much, but I expect the same back.
If I get the same back then, I feel secure, I don't feel anxious all the time, I don't feel paranoid, I don't worry about certain things as much, I don't cause arguments as much. It's the way I work. I know people are different but I don't think what I just listed is too much to ask for... At least when I do it, they seem to like it and not have a negative feeling about it so what I do must be good, wish they did the same.
When I have a child, I want them to grow up in an environment where lies and hidden things don't exist. I want them to grow up in a house where everybody is happy. That's all.
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